In this heartfelt MySpace blog from May 2006, 14-year-old Brandy Stevens-Rosine reflects on self-discovery, friendship, and overcoming struggles with loneliness, depression, and judgment. Read her thoughts in her own words. In her own colors.
May 28, 2006
Current mood: indescribable
When I first discovered things about myself, I thought I was the only one out there. Now as time rolls on, I realize that people I thought were never there are now helping me. I'm also realizing that there are people my age in the same place I was just a few years ago. I feel that as I realize these things, I get wiser, and more able to help people out; be a mentor for those who are still confused and lost. As you are reading this, some people may be saying "Oh how does she know?" or "What do you mean?". There are many issues that I have had to deal with over the past 3 years and it hasn't gotten easier. I've had to deal with violence, depression, lonliness, losing and gaining friends, and keeping all of this a secret. And this is not just me, either. Most of this is about people I do or once cared for. They made the mistakes and who was left to clean it up? Me. I believe that most of these experiences has made me wiser and a better person. Some of them I wish to forget about but I never regret. I'm hoping someone reads this and realizes that rumors don't say anything about me. You may think you know me because you've heard a rumor I asked out this person or I'm (insert stereotype). All I want is to be myself in a world without prejudice or rumors. I think I've found that in people who I believe I have gained as friends. Wish me luck and pray that history doesn't repeat itself.
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